Awareness changed my experience last Wednesday when I had the pleasure of being a guest on Angel Heart Radio with Kerry Chuttur of Queensland, Australia.

I was a bit nervous going into the show knowing I had an hour and a half to talk and answer questions. Going into the call I was concerned that I would not have enough to talk about. Coming out of the call I wondered if I had talked too much. Praying, trusting, awareness and knowing I was supported went a long way when  facing something that challenged me.

Many fears came up to attempt to distract me. Each one I invited God to enter, assist and guide me. Each fear never came to fruition because the invitation broke the cycle and left a space for a new outcome.  Whatever way you choose to invite into a feeling or situation the possibility for a brand spanking new outcome you bring awareness that the automatic response is not to be fulfilled this time. Only when we begin to bring awareness to knew possibilities does the new appear.

If you are saying “But I don’t know any other way of doing or feeling or I would be doing or feeling it!” good, that is a beginning of an awareness that you have a closed circuit that will simply repeat and repeat what is in it. We do not need to know the details, but need merely to make the request for a divinely choreographed next step.

In my nervous state if I had not made the request a conscious awareness, I would have had a very different outcome. One based on old criteria I believed about myself. Was I a genius on the call? Was I my old idea of perfect? No. And isn’t it wonderful. I set my intention before the call to be as me as I could be. That statement freed the reins up on my need to control.It also made me realize that I often behave in ways I think others expect me to be.  Being aware that when I try and control, I leave no room for NEW, has led me to many wonderful exciting people and experiences.

 

Oh where oh where has my little blog gone, oh where oh where can it be…

This little ditty came to mind this morning when I thought about writing my blog and I just had to go with it. I had thoughts of this or that to write about but they all became complicated and lost in the maze of my mind.

Sooooo… I went with whimsical. Yes times can get challenging. Yes they can seem to go on forever. Yet a smile and laugh can change it all in an instant.

I asked myself WHY are you straining about getting something written? Then I chose to look for the joy, and dare I say, the levity in my frustration. Yup there it was smack dab in the middle of my wandering through thoughts. Smile, laugh and feel. I impose my schedule on myself about writing and manage to not fulfill my own creation. Or have I? Yes I diddddddddddd. How clever of me.

How often do we set up schedules and expectations that are better left to the freedom of being present in the moment? When I chuckled and fretted over “Oh I am not being creative. Be CREATIVE d#$% it. Oh that worked oh so well. I chuckled, went about my business, had some great things happen in my life like a brand new great niece born on Valentines day.

In singing your own version of “Oh where oh where has my little blog gone” how much stress do you place on yourself that is unnecessary?

When I laughed about what I was feeling and realized the world did not revolve around my every word, nor my blog, only then did I realize that I had created a self imposed prison that I had walked into, locked the door (from the inside. Brilliant.) and hid the key from myself.

Then I found the key. Love my self. And of course laugh, feel joy and be present.

And VOILA, the blog appeared.

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Howling at that old Montana moon (again)

…was quite an experience this month. All activity came to a halt except of course exercising my lungs and  howling.

 

It seems too early to be coming out of my winter den, but I trust it’s the right thing to do. Nature is in divine balance and doing its thing to adjust with the earth changes, I too am adjusting but in my own way. I believe all on the planet are doing the very same thing. How much we fight those changes can greatly impact our experience.

Feelings of internal unease can be disconcerting. Clinging to what no longer exists can keep us hooked to pain. A good howl, cry or scream goes a long way in releasing stress. They are not the only ways,but sometimes they just plain work.

What are you carrying around that feels like an anchor around your soul? Cut the tie and release your spirit to change. How you ask? or even “What the heck are you talking about?” may be coming up in your thoughts. Good.

Awareness

 

Yes awareness that you have something tethering you to pain, to old ways of being that sure aren’t working anymore. Not the way they once did. The old ways of being can no longer be an excuse to stay in the dark and with pain once an awareness that change to a magnificent way of being is possible.

Ask

 

Ask God, the Universe, Spirit whatever you call that energy, force or being that is love and greater than all things, to help. You may being saying I have asked, and asked, and asked again. I never get an answer or help. Well it’s possible you were limiting the ways in which the information, next step, light could come. Ask, explore and expect something will present the next step, and maybe only the next step. Asking and expecting to not hear an answer, you receive exactly what you expect. Asking and expanding how the information will present its self and having full out faith you do receive, will change the outcome. DO NOT limit how you will receive.

Feel

 

What is divinely perfect could come as a feeling to do something, it could be a feeling to contact someone, it could be an accidental meeting you feel happened for a reason. Can you see the thread here. FEEL has a lot to do with receiving. Learn to feel again without control over what you are feeling. Open to the possibilities that what you are feeling is a catalyst to great change. Learn to stay present and feel. Life will change. Answers will come. Blessings will be presented. It is your choice to FEEL all of these things are possible.

Try howling at that old Montana moon (again).

Or whatever vantage point you are viewing massive and intense light on your discomfort and pain.

 

“Always Saddle Your Own Horse”

                                                          Connie Reeves

You needn’t be a horseman to embrace the advice of Connie Reeves spoken at the age of 101 “Always Saddle Your Own Horse.”

“Always Saddle Your Own Horse.” Listening to her words of advice gave me yet another means to phrase “be responsible for self.” I have been circling the wagons around this very sentiment for awhile. When I began to embrace a full out faith, and not a cautious one, I realized “always saddle my own horse” is exactly what it entailed.  Going internal into self, to  be captain of my own ship, to saddle my own horse, took on very deep personal meaning.

How many ways in our daily lives do we acquiesce to the belief someone else knows better about our life and how to live it than we do? And not know how to do anything about it.

“Always Saddle Your Own Horse” is a reminder that no one can run your life but you, unless you let them.

If you are asking “How do we change a life that appears so run by others?” you have the beginnings of the answer in the question.  Appears. No one can make us believe or think anything. We choose it

• when we believe others know better for us than we do
• when we do not question what is clearly no longer working in the world
• when we blame others for how our life is
• when we blame ourselves for how our life is
• when we believe an internal dialogue that does not support us

Thoughts become things is not a new concept. Our thoughts creating in our rapidly changing world is not a new concept. What may be a new concept for you is feeling the power in you to change what isn’t working, change what you have up until now given away and leave judgment and self abuse out of the criteria you use to become aware of your ability to “Always saddle your own horse.”

One step at a time can we take Connie’s advice. Being open to the steps that are presented to us takes being present enough to not predetermine in this very moment what that step is. Be open to exploring new avenues of thought and you are well on your way to always saddling your own horse.

It takes you beginning to be aware that other possibilities exist beyond the one that you are living that isn’t working like it once did. It takes YOU making new choices, even in this moment.