The earth is losing many great spirits in her own transition to new life. Both human and animal souls are assisting.

One in particular, my dad, is stepping gently to the other side. Although it is anything but gentle for his physical body, his soul is beginning to see the face of God.

All those he loves so deeply, most especially my mom, the woman he has loved for so long. There is quite a welcoming home party being prepared for him.

Since I started to write this blog, my dad has died. I feel joy and great sorrow. Yes they can both exist in the same space.

My dad is now more illusive in his resonance because it has become a part of ALL.  He and my mom are an integral part of my world, my emotions, my capacity to love freely. There is great joy in his now being part of a vast universe of unknown filled with faith.

He was a very special human who has now returned to the purity of his soul. He is now aware of many things he could only perceive when he released his physical body. He is letting go of all the experiences that shaped his belief in limitation, lack, pain, sorrow, and separation.

My sisters and I knew we had a very special man as our dad. His devotion to God, Country, family and friends was the real deal. It  appeared at times as if he was stubborn  until I realized his unwavering belief  was what carried him through tough times that many of us can not conceive of.

Snow storms, illness, operations and more could not keep him from keeping a promise he had made to God to never miss Mass if he came home alive from a war he lost so much too. He kept that promise, as he did many others. He knew what was sacred , life, love and commitment to all he was blessed with in this world. He never quit when things got tough. He was born during tough times and knew how to get through without much. And be happy in the process. Material things were not important to him. But love, God, and family were at the top of his list.

May I have the courage to live what he taught without speaking a word.

Yes my dad is now the sun,  moon, stars, mountains and more .

Love fills me beyond words when I  gaze one more time at the look that was captured in my sweet mares eyes. Chris is in spirit now. It will be ten years next December. She is still a love that fills me. I feel her love in all ways.

Tears are filling my eyes because of course some moments still touch me deeply at how much we shared and still do. The love and lessons she brought to my life did not end with her departure from a body that no longer served her, nor could contain her.

I was a vastly different human back then. The sun rose and set on my girl. She taught me, after her death, that  was a heavy load to carry. Lovingly she guided me to the sun rising and setting blended with her love. Chris conveyed to my heart a letter shortly after she died.  Goodbye, Dear Friend set me on a heartfelt path to becoming whole.

Do I miss the days of flying around on the wings of my Angel, you bet I do. I had no fear in her loving embrace, either on her back or in her heart. Change is inevitable on this planet we live on. Change came abruptly the morning of her death. Pain beyond anything I had ever experienced before was what I lived that day and many days to come, until I could let her message, and God’s, in. Love does not end. Amen.

I now am blessed with two other mares. Brandy a 23 yr old Morgan, and Butternut an 11 yr old Haflinger. Brandy grew up with Chris, and suffered a broken heart when she died. Butternut never knew her but felt the legacy and turmoil within us both.

The love Chris shared so freely with Brandy and I, and us with her,  lead to expanding that love. It took awhile.  Being stubborn I kept trying to hold on to memories as they were.  Until I began to explore the many pathways of unconditional love.

Chris, my Appaloosa mare, awakened LOVE in the depths of my being, . The big kind, the all encompassing kind.  If I did not let it grow and change, I was killing the  life force within me. Love within, love for self, change, expansion, growth and feeling my emotions are all part of my life force. Chris will forever be intertwined in my breath of life. She is and always (all ways) will be a part of my exploring, love without end, Amen.

Brandy & Butter

Butternut USA

Brandy

Don’t suppose that gave you much more to go on as to where this is going, but wait I’ll get there.

In the English language the word “IT” is used to substitute for the name of a certain object or in this case an abstract idea. Now we are getting there. In this case  I am following the thread of an abstract idea that pertains to living your life. That narrows it down, some.

“We live in a world that has led us to believe we are dependent on others in how we live our life”. We give away to others the power of our choice when we are dependent on another to live and tell us who what are and how we are to live.

Now read this sentence ” We live in a world where we interact with others.” A bit more liberating I would say. Take time to feel the difference in the meaning. Feel how in the statement on dependence it keeps you at the mercy of others. In this sentence you are equal to all things.

The mere shift in perspective as to how we view our lives can move us to the beginnings of a peaceful coexistence on the planet. In the statement If You live your life on equal footing with others you are the one making choices about your life because you know that all of life is free to do as it chooses. When we exercise  choice, in regard to resonance of all things being equal, we make decisions that are freeing for us and that treat others with respect not dominance.

So, you have the choice to shift your perspective in how you view your interactions in your life. You can’t live life alone without interaction with your surrounding world, whether it be man, animal, or the earth.  But you are the only one who can make the change in your awareness in how you view  your life and interaction with humans, animals, and the earth.

You can’t live life alone, but you are the only one who can live your life.

How do you want to live it? Dependent or equal and liberated?

You can take this concept and run with it in many areas of your life.  All boils down to how you want to be in relation to your world, your life. Do you want to be swept along with the current of life that is no longer working, or do you want to take a new path that will connect you with all things?

The not so simple answer to “You can’t do it alone, but you are the only one who can do it” is., LIVE YOUR LIFE

Awareness changed my experience last Wednesday when I had the pleasure of being a guest on Angel Heart Radio with Kerry Chuttur of Queensland, Australia.

I was a bit nervous going into the show knowing I had an hour and a half to talk and answer questions. Going into the call I was concerned that I would not have enough to talk about. Coming out of the call I wondered if I had talked too much. Praying, trusting, awareness and knowing I was supported went a long way when  facing something that challenged me.

Many fears came up to attempt to distract me. Each one I invited God to enter, assist and guide me. Each fear never came to fruition because the invitation broke the cycle and left a space for a new outcome.  Whatever way you choose to invite into a feeling or situation the possibility for a brand spanking new outcome you bring awareness that the automatic response is not to be fulfilled this time. Only when we begin to bring awareness to knew possibilities does the new appear.

If you are saying “But I don’t know any other way of doing or feeling or I would be doing or feeling it!” good, that is a beginning of an awareness that you have a closed circuit that will simply repeat and repeat what is in it. We do not need to know the details, but need merely to make the request for a divinely choreographed next step.

In my nervous state if I had not made the request a conscious awareness, I would have had a very different outcome. One based on old criteria I believed about myself. Was I a genius on the call? Was I my old idea of perfect? No. And isn’t it wonderful. I set my intention before the call to be as me as I could be. That statement freed the reins up on my need to control.It also made me realize that I often behave in ways I think others expect me to be.  Being aware that when I try and control, I leave no room for NEW, has led me to many wonderful exciting people and experiences.

Awareness of things unseen

This little ditty came to mind this morning when I thought about writing my blog and I just had to go with it. I had thoughts of this or that to write about but they all became complicated and lost in the maze of my mind.

Sooooo… I went with whimsical. Yes times can get challenging. Yes they can seem to go on forever. Yet a smile and laugh can change it all in an instant.

I asked myself WHY are you straining about getting something written? Then I chose to look for the joy, and dare I say, the levity in my frustration. Yup there it was smack dab in the middle of my wandering through thoughts. Smile, laugh and feel. I impose my schedule on myself about writing and manage to not fulfill my own creation. Or have I? Yes I diddddddddddd. How clever of me.

How often do we set up schedules and expectations that are better left to the freedom of being present in the moment? When I chuckled and fretted over “Oh I am not being creative. Be CREATIVE d#$% it. Oh that worked oh so well. I chuckled, went about my business, had some great things happen in my life like a brand new great niece born on Valentines day.

In singing your own version of “Oh where oh where has my little blog gone” how much stress do you place on yourself that is unnecessary?

When I laughed about what I was feeling and realized the world did not revolve around my every word, nor my blog, only then did I realize that I had created a self imposed prison that I had walked into, locked the door (from the inside. Brilliant.) and hid the key from myself.

Then I found the key. Love my self. And of course laugh, feel joy and be present.

And VOILA, the blog appeared.

Howling at that old Montana moon (again)

…was quite an experience this month. All activity came to a halt except of course exercising my lungs and  howling.

Howling at that old Montana Moon

It seems too early to be coming out of my winter den, but I trust it’s the right thing to do. Nature is in divine balance and doing its thing to adjust with the earth changes, I too am adjusting but in my own way. I believe all on the planet are doing the very same thing. How much we fight those changes can greatly impact our experience.

Feelings of internal unease can be disconcerting. Clinging to what no longer exists can keep us hooked to pain. A good howl, cry or scream goes a long way in releasing stress. They are not the only ways,but sometimes they just plain work.

What are you carrying around that feels like an anchor around your soul? Cut the tie and release your spirit to change. How you ask? or even “What the heck are you talking about?” may be coming up in your thoughts. Good.

Awareness

Yes awareness that you have something tethering you to pain, to old ways of being that sure aren’t working anymore. Not the way they once did. The old ways of being can no longer be an excuse to stay in the dark and with pain once an awareness that change to a magnificent way of being is possible.

Ask

Ask God, the Universe, Spirit whatever you call that energy, force or being that is love and greater than all things, to help. You may being saying I have asked, and asked, and asked again. I never get an answer or help. Well it’s possible you were limiting the ways in which the information, next step, light could come. Ask, explore and expect something will present the next step, and maybe only the next step. Asking and expecting to not hear an answer, you receive exactly what you expect. Asking and expanding how the information will present its self and having full out faith you do receive, will change the outcome. DO NOT limit how you will receive.

Feel

What is divinely perfect could come as a feeling to do something, it could be a feeling to contact someone, it could be an accidental meeting you feel happened for a reason. Can you see the thread here. FEEL has a lot to do with receiving. Learn to feel again without control over what you are feeling. Open to the possibilities that what you are feeling is a catalyst to great change. Learn to stay present and feel. Life will change. Answers will come. Blessings will be presented. It is your choice to FEEL all of these things are possible.

Try howling at that old Montana moon (again).

Or whatever vantage point you are viewing massive and intense light on your discomfort and pain.

“Always Saddle Your Own Horse”

                                                          Connie Reeves

You needn’t be a horseman to embrace the advice of Connie Reeves spoken at the age of 101 “Always Saddle Your Own Horse.”

“Always Saddle Your Own Horse.” Listening to her words of advice gave me yet another means to phrase “be responsible for self.” I have been circling the wagons around this very sentiment for awhile. When I began to embrace a full out faith, and not a cautious one, I realized “always saddle my own horse” is exactly what it entailed.  Going internal into self, to  be captain of my own ship, to saddle my own horse, took on very deep personal meaning.

How many ways in our daily lives do we acquiesce to the belief someone else knows better about our life and how to live it than we do? And not know how to do anything about it.

“Always Saddle Your Own Horse” is a reminder that no one can run your life but you, unless you let them.

If you are asking “How do we change a life that appears so run by others?” you have the beginnings of the answer in the question.  Appears. No one can make us believe or think anything. We choose it

• when we believe others know better for us than we do
• when we do not question what is clearly no longer working in the world
• when we blame others for how our life is
• when we blame ourselves for how our life is
• when we believe an internal dialogue that does not support us

Thoughts become things is not a new concept. Our thoughts creating in our rapidly changing world is not a new concept. What may be a new concept for you is feeling the power in you to change what isn’t working, change what you have up until now given away and leave judgment and self abuse out of the criteria you use to become aware of your ability to “Always saddle your own horse.”

One step at a time can we take Connie’s advice. Being open to the steps that are presented to us takes being present enough to not predetermine in this very moment what that step is. Be open to exploring new avenues of thought and you are well on your way to always saddling your own horse.

It takes you beginning to be aware that other possibilities exist beyond the one that you are living that isn’t working like it once did. It takes YOU making new choices, even in this moment.

It came as a surprise to me this morning when during my morning meditation some information caught me smack dab between the eyes. Yes, my intuition and a knowing greater than I am, finally got through my old “fight or flight” reaction to everything way of being. We are taught to fight being sick. I hate being “sick”. I don’t want to slow down and listen to what my body is telling me. “Who me? Not Listen?” Can’t be true. I take care of my body. I was listening only to what I wanted to hear. Then I realized if I don’t like what is happening I forge on and try to “fix”  it.  And quiet that pesky voice.

We have been taught throughout life “being ” sick is a bad thing. Take pills and eradicate whatever is going on. In my case that was a cold.  I took vitamin after vitamin. Which in and of itself is not a bad thing. But the reason I took them was a bit skewed. I was taking them to do battle, not to support my body in the process of letting all that was stored up in me pass through. I was not supporting my immune system, nor my  emotional body. I just wanted to get through it.And keep on running.

I believe that our emotions when not acknowledged and felt will over time give our bodies a wake up call, an imbalance, an illness. I am not saying there are not germs, viruses etc that contribute to illness and disease. How the mental, emotional, spiritual and physical body interacts with the previously mentioned contributors to our physical imbalance is what I believe is often misunderstood.

I was running my body on empty wondering why I was a prime receptacle for imbalance.

Our physical bodies are not honored for the brilliance that they hold. Our mental bodies want everything neat and tidy and to auto respond from old ways of being, old ways we were taught to approach ill-ness. Do we even consider our spiritual body in any of this. The emotional body is usually left out in the cold in this equation. In my case it was the cold.

We are so accustomed to living with the belief that illness happens to our body, not as a reaction from our body bringing us a message of imbalance. But then we are also accustomed to our focus being outside of our body. “Take my product and all your ills will go away” is beamed at society relentlessly by the media and drug companies. Our predator instinct want to go in and eradicate the enemy.

If we even believe there is a correlation between our emotional self and ill-ness, do we go to battle or allow awareness to illuminate what our physical body is displaying to us so we can hear a message we may have been avoiding.My warrior self was engaged in battle until I chose to sit quietly to begin to allow for the possibility that my emotional body was squabbling with changes going on in me.  Not to be a predator saying “tell me, tell me.”  But a soft presence supporting the part of me that would eventually tell me what was going on, what I was avoiding.  I came to the realization that I could support my emotional self in what I was feeling and simply bring awareness and let it pass through me.

In my case images of my self, my abilities and my place in the world are expanding. Leaving behind what was limiting my possibilities and exploration in all of life. Including my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical bodies.

New adventures arriving daily can be embraced and not feared. New ways of thinking can be perused to see if they might hold validity for you. What that requires is looking and going within oneself and leaving judgment behind. New territory, yes…

For now, my “fight or flight” has taken its PF Flyers off.

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Only you can begin to explore a (w)holistic approach for you.

The definition of a Holistic Approach from Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia:

Holistic health is a concept in medical practice upholding that all aspects of people’s needs, psychological, physical and social should be taken into account and seen as a whole. As defined above, the holistic view on treatment is widely accepted in medicine.^[1] A different definition, claiming that disease is a result of physical, emotional, spiritual, social and environmental imbalance, is used in alternative medicine.^[2]

     … the journey to awareness begins in your internal world.

 Gift of The Ages, what is it”?  The answer to that question is not a simple one.

As I sat down at the computer to write about the gift I realized the enormity of what was coming to me, and its inherent simplicity. Sometimes the simplicity of a truth is the hardest to grasp. It is so interwoven, and so much a part of everything by its presence or lack of, that we can’t see it. Or should I say feel it.

In going back to the question “What is the GIFT?” Let’s start with what it is not. It is not something that exists outside of you. Although you will see results of it there. It is not something you can touch and feel with your physical hands. Although you can touch and feel the results of it. And it is definitely not something you can control. Although you will see the results of that as well in your physical world.

Okay, it is not all those things and probably more. But what is it?

It is illusive. The results of it are visible in your world. Awareness of it can change your internal and external  life dramatically. And it has always been available to us. It is nothing new.

It is intertwined with many things. It can perform miracles. And it can heal. It is vast and expansive. It is multifaceted.

To begin to embrace it and let it flow freely in your world requires FAITH and TRUST.

The Gift of The Ages, the gift of ALL time is LOVE.

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To explore the GIFT more please join me January 21st for a lecture and healing.  For further information and to sign up   The Shift of The Ages.

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The Explorers Club supports practice. Living  honestly with yourself  takes practice. Living each moment from a you that is not dictated by outside influences takes practice. Being present through uncomfortable feelings takes practice. Becoming a seasoned participant takes (you guessed it) practice. And commitment.

When we first activate our membership in The Explorers Club and start on a path of discovery  all is unfamiliar. We no longer process through the familiar, with familiar tools. If your asking “How can I process through what I don’t know?” that’s a good question.

If we stay present and do not rush ahead to an answer, solution or response to what we are presently feeling or thinking we allow the part of us that is our own brilliant core (the explorer) to speak. It travels what the mind has not yet learned to allow as part of your conscious being. Simply put, the mind races ahead to make all your thoughts fit different categories you have learned to process through that are learned from outside of you.  Well maybe not so simple. No one said the club wasn’t going to challenge you (the secret handshake will be easier.) There are no rules in this excursion. Guidelines to peruse, yes. Possibilities to commitment you create, yes.

To be silent enough inside to hear the you that is not pain, sorrow or struggle takes repeated commitment to the possibility of its existence. Our old patterns feel threatened by change. Remaining silent without judgment of what races through your mind is a start. Yes it takes practice to begin to hear from within, without the mind at the helm designating where and how the thoughts are to be processed.

As a charter member of  The Explorers Club I do not intend to lose my mind (although some may chuckle it might be to late), but to expand and explore how I may have limited it by not incorporating my heart and my soul into the mix.

Yes, inquisitive souls want to know. Practice and commitment to perusal keep me an active participant. New members are always (all ways) welcome.